As I wipe away my tears
Reality hits me makes me reliese what I am doing
Doing with these fears
I did these stupid things to make friends with my peers
I put my self esteem as low as it could go
Challenged life tried to go through end it with that stupid knife
I still wonder y
Y do I think like that
At least now I am off the drugs
I can hardly breath I can’t even feel my hearts thug
I stare at the scars the marks left of the past
I still sit and wonder
Wonder y I didn’t have a blast
The people I meant along the way hurt me
Abused me which led me to a stray
The only trail I intended to follow
Was the trail of drugs that I was having
Which I’m still in denial
I betrayed everyone my family, friends and so on
All for that bundle of sin
The sin that will always follow me to the grave
I wish I could push it away
Instead of having to dig it up with my big pain of spade
All those nights I went out and caused trouble
I still wonder who was that was that me
What was I doing who am I, who have I become
Y did I turn out this way
I sit and wonder why was I that scum
I’m sorry for all the grief and pain I caused
Because I was a mental case playing stupid little games
Just all for my own self pity dwelling on myself all for the game
Im sorry I will forever be the blame

My sincerest apologies to the ppl I cause pain to
I am truly sorry I will forever love you all
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