Why does it feel like there is more wrong here?
It's never been near what is was back there.
Why am I waiting to clean up a mess?
I'm nothing if nothing has me upset.

I hate how it feels to just feel okay.
I'll take sadness if there's passion with pain.
Love me like no one or rip my heart out.
Don't make me wait like I'm waiting right now.

I'm learning you're selfish, that you don't care.
Take your time with my heart - I'll wait right here.
I make me sick being all I think's weak,
But you read me well and know I won't leave.

You like the way that you know I like you.
I like how easy you are to see through.
You lead me around and I wish you knew
It hurts me to watch you let me let you.

What would you think if you knew what I knew?
How I can't stand and how much I want you?
You think I'm here thanks to all that you hide.
I'm only pretending to buy your lies.

I'm hanging on hope that you will find me
Or hurt me enough to get me to leave.
Make up your own mind for the sake of mine.
My heart will wait but my sanity's timed.

I would not change me for anyone else.
To be what you want, I'll give up myself.
I wonder how things would change if you knew
I can't help but do what you tell me to.

4.09.06
 
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