Take my will to control from my lungs.
Destroy and conquer me. Can I be forgiven?
Jealousy sprung from infatuation, my
lack of appreciation for the word
"love".
To love is to admit defeat.
And I do not love, but lust.
Though I now have been
defeated.
I know nothing of the truth behind your eyes.
Nothing? I hear nothing but lies spewing from envy.
Oh the mistress of our society-
offer your guilt to my bloodless veins.
Cannot have, but to hold..
Cannot be real in a bout of pity.
Pity among me, take me.
Feel nothing? I know nothing of
hate.
But love.
Lust.
My contrition speaks nothing
of my will to have and to hold you
in my arms. Forever?
Lasting together is true in a fairy tale.
Reality is farther off.
Destroy, abase.
Oh but the humiliation!
For you, take away from my sins and I have
nothing to offer.
Useless, worthless to you.
But take away from my perceptions of life
and I'm all you'd ever need.
Could I be her? I'd
rather be there.
With my thoughts bare to you.
Take or leave my shame I left
there for you.
Destroy, outwit.
And sprawled across wires I am left.
Out of my fantasy?
But easily set back into my solace.
Of love.
Lust.
Desire to touch.
To feel? I feel nothing.
Torpor? Setting in slowly,
visions painting in my head, my
conscience, oh so bare to you.
Decode, decide.
Could I not have been a savior?
Your savior.
Say the word,
and you will be in my arms.
Say those words
and I will not let go.
Out of love,
not lust,
And the desire
to be needed.

 
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