Too many words
To try to explain
What I feel
When I hear your name.

My heart jumps for joy,
My mind starts to race
My stomach starts to tingle,
A smile comes to my face.

Longing to feel you
Beside me again
Where should I start,
How should I begin.

You were amazing
In every single way
Knowing exactly the right
Words to always say.

Calling me your Angel,
And you my Only Love,
I knew from the first moment,
You were sent from above.

Your acts of kindness
Always flowing free,
Every waking moment possible,
You would spend with me.

But yet I have regrets
That no one else will hear
Because it caused heartache
And a tremendous amount of fear.

If only I wouldn’t have left
Then things could be the same,
If I wouldn’t have gone there…
I only have myself to blame.

Tears running down my face
Because if I could I would take it back
Because I love you like no one before
And I can’t take it back.

The hurt of what happened
Lingers in my heart
And now it seems like my life
Is slowly falling apart.

I see you and I wonder,
Is it all my fault
Is there something I could have done,
….because it is my fault.

I love you more than you will know
And I hope in time you’ll see
That I have prayed for days on end
To be able to spend my life with thee.

I love you babe and always have,
Nothing will change that ever.
For the first time in my life
I had planned my “forever”.

My life was planned
Only with you,
A wedding, A family
Bentley Michael too.

If I wouldn’t have left
This would still be,
But I screwed it up,
And Now…. I see.

But to be fair,
You weren’t perfect either
No place to go to think it through,
No place to get a breather.

I felt betrayed and lied to,
Like our relationship was a play
But I trusted you with all my heart
… it will always be that way.

Babe, You were the one for me
The best guy I had ever met
Your kisses and watching movies,
I will never forget.

I hope to have more times like those
To make some more memories
I know it will be tough but we can do it,
If you can try and trust me.

I am trusting you that what you said
Is and will be true,
That the you I met seven and a half months ago
Is the true, and only you.

I hate to doubt but if this isn’t so,
Could you please let me know,
I don’t want to get in to deep
Just to find out it is a show.

As much as it hurts me to say this,
If you want, I will let you go
I love you Cody, I really do,
But if this is what you want, just let me know.

In closing babe, I miss you
And will for all of my days,
No matter what the outcome is,
I do not regret one moment spent with you … I hope the memories stay.


…. Nicole L. Duttry
4-1-07

 
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