The three words you said
Had opened my mind at the time
Made me feel needed
Wanted
Special
Different than anyone else
But with those little words
Comes a strong
Message
Promise
And responsibility
But that was something you never
Understood.
I believed that when you
Say those three words
It is forever
Eternal
And consistent
I was hesitant to tell you the same
Because I did not yet know how
I was just 15 and you
Were older, but less mature
Those words for you were thrown around
You said them to me pretending
You said it to pressure me
Take away my life
My hopes
My dreams
And give everything to you.
I did not want to make
A promise
Send the wrong message
Or be yours for eternity
Because when I say those three words
I want them to mean something
I will never throw them around
But now I have the incapability
To trust someone who says them to me
It is your fault
You have taken away many things from me
But I am glad there is one thing that I
Will hold on to until
I am ready
To give it away
But someday I hope I can
Love again
Live again
Trust again
And breathe again
You name shall never cross my lips
You face will never be seen by my eyes
Your hand will never touch mine
I wish to never hear your voice
Because if these events occur
My ears will bleed
My eyes will become blind
My lips will become frail
My hand broken
My voice mute
You took away my life
My love
And my heart
So now I pose this upon you
To never ruin a girls life again
To never take away
her life
her trust
and her breath
because the pain is
insurmountable
and I would never even want
my worst enemy to feel the pain
you caused me
its been a year,
I’ve left
running away from my past
finally conquering the fact
that I never did a thing wrong
you blamed me
but you’re the one
who was always
and shall forever be
the “wannabe” rapist.

 
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