If my heart beats
And blood courses through my veins
Then why is it
Emotion chains do not hold me back
I kiss you with no real love intention
And have motives I forget to mention
I wonder why I can be so cold so empty
How I can hurt and use so many
I sometimes don’t even know when im lying
Or when my mind is in yours searching, prying
Can I be hurt too?
Can I ever mean the words I love you?
I look in a mirror and know not who I am
You look to me and see a false reality
Of a me, I can pretend to be
I fade in a silver reflection
And fade into the lies of my deception
Some think my heart is gold for my good deed
But truly, I do those things to spite a bad seed
If my heart can beat and give me life
Then why does it take others like the grim reapers scythe?
I can love you so to say
Ill love you for one or two days in the worst kind of way
Id rather let you in my bed
Then mean the loving words said
The world feeling like
A missed kiss
That landed perfectly on the lips
People with hearts to big for there own chest to handle
Mine the size of a flame on a dying candle
We compare our studies of others hearts trying to understand
Trying to figure out what it is every person will demand
With different reasons to our needed knowledge of there minds
With different intents of different kinds
The lover, kind and gentle
With intent to be loved, back
Me with the empty soul turned a shade of black,
Intent that ill be safe from noticing eyes
So that ill never be the one who cries
If my heart beats
And blood courses through my veins
Then why is it
The whispers in the back of my mind can never be made out
Then why is it
The only words inside my heart say
Is get out
Trapped in this cold dark chamber
This place of hateful words and dark secrets
My heart and mind
Create a jail im stuck behind
These veins full of blood say im alive
But these whispers and my heart say
I have died

 
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