Degrading, self-defacing, this monster never dies
Anticipating, debating, on my next lie
Will the pain within ever end

Dedication to eradication of all feelings
Consumed, doomed to the devils dealings
How long have I been gone

Grieving, deceiving, so delusively
Cheating, mistreating, so abusively
My soul isn't whole

Sedated, self-hated, cuts upon my heart
Discovery, my misery, I fall apart
I cry but do not die
 
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