How can it hurt so much
When I've known it all along
Sure I didn't want to
And have chosen not to accept it
But I can't pretend any longer

I can't believe how long it's been
I've wasted half a year on this
A deep and meaningless love
Because what else can it be?

I barely know anything about his life
All I know is the kind of person he is
Or the kind of person he has shown me
But I don't know if that is real

But know I know it's not
He fucked with my heart
I was cautious as usual
Because I knew it couldn't be true

He was a real sweetheart
But then he asked out a local slut
Sure she's beautiful
Something I will never be
But can she ever love him the way I do?

I know that she hasn't been faithful
But I can't tell him in case its not true
But from what I've heard
She's done it way more than once

I thought that we were at least friends
That we would always be together
But he doesn't wanna know me
Sure when I cry to him, he replies

He's not completely heartless
Just doesn't see what he's done to me
Doesn't understand that I need him
And I need him to need me too

He means the world to me
I just wish he cared for me
In the same friendly way
But no he doesn't keep in touch

With every breath I take
He slips further away from me
With every tear I cry
A part of my dream and soul dies
Until there is nothing left

 
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