A nightmare dwells in my mind
Of poetry, people, sickness of every kind
This nightmare so familiar
I feel slightly as if I remember
Agony heard in screams
Agony of memory in my dreams
Tell me why mind plagues me so
Things I want to forget things I don’t want to know
Make my mind forget merciful Mary
Make my past so distant and fuzzy

The screams personal to me
Screams the making of no mercy
God this fate, this life you have given
Tell me what plan may you have?
God do you care for me?
Will you ever have slight mercy?
Have you not tested me enough?

My blood plagued by a man I hate
Is my soul already plagued with a painful fate?
Will you merciful Mary ever stop your lover
Will you not stop him to save another?
The conflictions that make me scream
Even when I sleep, I scream in my dream
Pain trapped within the breaking mind of me
Please I beg merciful Mary make god let me be
Torture so constant it cannot be taken
What sin have I not been forgiven?

I have done all that I can do
I have passed more tests then just a few
Let me rest im tired of your games
Im tired of those secrets, those nightmares of pure shame
With every day I pass and live
I ask you what more can I give
With every path, I try to take to change my fate
Each coiled with darkness and trickery I can’t escape
Determined to keep me within your grip
Determined to make my mind slip

I pray in this church to a god I don’t believe exists
I pray to this god to distract me from my wrists
Not sure why I pray
Maybe its years of so much to say
The cross simple and divine
Bring joy and hop to people of all kind
Merciful Mary if you are real
Show me not how to hurt but simply how to feel

 
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