You say I should look closer
I just want to look away
Every time I think about it
It's hard for my to stay

You say there's someone decent
someone out there for me
But look at them all
at all the rest
and what they've turned out to be

You say I'm something special
I say that I'm not
so many problems
you'd never guess
pushed aside and now forgot

Don't tell me to keep my hopes up
it'll be my biggest mistake
It's okay if you don't see why
you don't know what I've had to take

You want me to trust you
but I'll never trust again
So much I'll never tell you
things I'd never tell friend

doesn't mean that I don't want to
I wish I could open up
If you knew you'd see it too
but for now it's just too much

I want so badly to tell you
everything sounds so harsh
always so much that I need to say
I'd never know where to start

And even if I did
I tried to tell you it all
I'd be too vulnerable
it would make me feel so small

You say you're the one who's different
you're not like all the rest
I've heard that story so many times
though you seem like you're the best

And even so
I'd be in too deep
Can't control my feelings
I'm too weak

It might be best
if we didn't talk at all
you can't turn out like all the rest
and I won't let you

I can't tell if you would see me the same
if you'll judge me
if you'll blame

And I can't tell how you'll feel
you say I'm just a kid
so how could you be real

I don't want to be a disposable pleasure
Don't play with my heart
I'm too scared to say never

Even if after all we're just friends
Don't ever be fake
Please don't ever pretend

I've got allot at stake
there's still so much to mend
 
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