When I was just
A little girl
A long, long time ago
I showed my smile
Danced around
Spun in circles
And fell down
I'd stand back up
On my feet
And spin again
With scraped knees

A few years later
I grew up
Fell in love
Played with make-up
I soared above
With my wings so white
I flew around
Smiling happy
No coming down
The came the gunshot of reality
Straight through my white wings
Total Brutality

I fell to the ground
I saw my self bleed
I looked up and saw the black clouds roll in
I noticed the hate inside me

Things were presented
I'd never seen before
Things i've avoided
All the things i've ignored

Knives and guns
Hate or love
Holding Tightly
Like a glove
My eyes turned misty
From the beautiful blue
Felt like my mind and life
Would come unglued

I did some things
I regret today
All the pain inside
Wouldn't go away
Crying alone
In my room
Just wishing my life
Wouldnt be filled with gloom

By myself
In my head
Saying things
I wish I hadn't said
Memories stay
Forever with me
Like a disease
As I plea
Memories stinging
Likea bee
Poisoning my mind
Skin so red, I want to flee

The clouds still remain
Guns and Knives in my hand
Lost in my world
"I-hate-myself land"
Wishing all these feelings
Would just go away
Yet somehow i feel
Like they wish to stay
 
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