Fuck you, get out, leave me alone, its your fault, I think she needs help,
She doesn’t love you, I don’t love you, I was rapped, what the hell am I
here for?

My life has been nothing but trails and tribulations of mixed emotions and
pain.
Never in all my life could I imagine a family that isn’t a family. A family
were love never existed and pain will never die.

From day to day my felling of this shity family changes from shity, real
shity and funkin shity. I lone to feel the pain of childbirth, because it’s
the only pain I’ve never felt. I cannot express pain only fell it. Its cold,
clammy claws that rack the flesh of my back until it reaches the spine and
rippes out the only backbone left in this family.

God who are in heaven, why me?
Why must I carry this retched burden on my back?
I’ve walked bare footed for so many miles that the souls of my feet have
been rubbed raw of flesh. Generations have passed, years have gone and yet
we still repeat time.

Then I look at me, and see that I myself am still nothing but a bite of
grain in an hourglass. I myself self cannot carry the burden of hundreds, be
I only one. You have saved my soul and my heart. You’ve pieced me together
from nothing, like an enigma. Yet I still fell incomplete.

My soul yearns for that missing piece. But what is it that makes that vile
hole so unbarably painful. But If I must die incomplete, let it not be like
a hunted dog. Scared and afraid of what might become of him. Though let it
be like a tiger, one which accepts “kill or be killed” with a strong heart,
body, mind and soul. And that my family will realize that I fought for them
not against them.

In Jesus name I pray AMAN!!



 
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