You confuse me
You frustrate me
I love you
I can't stand you
you bore me
you interest me
I know how you're feeling
I haven't a clue
you're my top priority
you're the least important
you're the most needed
you're the least wanted

your moods shift like daylight in a forest fire
raging
tormenting and furious,
subtle and unknown
i wish you'd just lay down
and put yourself out

your actions puzzle me
when will we be open?
when can we relate
when will i feel like i'm not walking on ice?
when can i breathe?

you're the cause of my confusion
you're the root of my self reflection

i hardly ever think about you
but you're there,
taunting me to come back
come back to what?

to me

to who?
to what?
i need you
i love you
don't break me down
talk to me
leave me to my shrinking dignity

even when you're not there
you make me think

yes, i make you think

think about what?

yourself

you're right
you're always right
i can't stand up against you
push me down

i can't

you can

i won't

i know you won't
so innocent...
so self-reliant
god damn it let me in

i'm afraid

of what

of myself

fine
feed off of your fear
let it rage
like a mountain fire
controlling things
but you rely on air
so you aren't in control
are you
i can put you out

you can.

but i won't
because i need you
so rage
rage
rage...

 
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