I remember I said no!
It all happened at a party.
The cool thing to do at that time was to party and get high all the time.
Well that is when Ben came in to my picture. He was the coolest guy at
school. And to hang out with him was a honor you shouldn't refuse. Well
I go that so called honor that night. I was speechless when me and my
friends saw him coming my way. You could tell he was really messed up as he
stumbled over the chair in the way. But I didn't care at that moment
the coolest guy was coming to talk to me! We ended up talking for hours.
Well he told me since all my friends had already left me he would take me
home. Because I agreed. That is when the nightmare started. We where on the
way to my house when I noticed he took the wrong turn. I remember telling
him my street was the other way. He just ignored me, and told me to relax.
He told me that alot that night. Panic rose in my throat. Thoughts raced
through my mind. Just wondering why he wasn't listening to me. Next
thing I noticed he was taking all the turns into a wooded area. I could feel
bile in my throat from all the fear in my heart. I wanted out. I wanted to
scream but no nose escaped my lips. What was going on? But I knew what was
gonna happen. I felt the car come to a halt. He got me out of the car and
threw me on to the jagged sticks. I begged him not to do what he did to me.
I told him NO . Didn't that mean anything? All he said to me though was
" I know you want me baby. So just relax it wont hurt a bit." But
he lied it did hurt! He took one thing from me besides my virginity. He took
my Dignity. I cried the whole time. When he was finally got off of me he
said " If you tell anyone I swear I will make you life a living hell
where you will wish you where never born." I took that threat to heart.
He told me to get back in the car and he would take me home. But I said No .
I never wanted to see his face again. So he left me there to find my own way
home that night. I lived up to that promise that was made that night. And I
never spoken another word to him since. Or wished I could be in that certain
group you always think that is what you wont. But oh how wrong one can be.
You just wish you never have.
 
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