I don't know how you think I feel
about you inside
for this I try to hide
so you don't misunderstand
the mixed emotions that stir inside
I want you, I hate you, but I need you
I send you all these signals
you send them right back
I don't know what to make of them
so they're ignored
just like I am by so many people
even you the only person I care for most
is like to you, I don't exist
should we talk about this
or will it to be ignored
and just lost in the past
I don't quite know how to tell you this
I think I'm starting to love you
but how can a person who is ignored like this
love someone who causes so much pain
people say your just another bump in my road of life
I don't want you to be just a bump
I want you to be that lump in my throat
that makes it so I can’t talk
every time I see you it makes me glad
for I start to think of the only two memories that we have
you ask why I'm depressed all the time
well , your like person #47 in that line
do you really want to know why I mope around all the time
its because people like you
use me all the time
do you get pleasure out of when you abuse me
and just walk all over me
what's with the head games you play
it hurt when you say the things you do
it tears me up inside
makes me feel like I want to go die
will you miss me when I'm gone
or will I be just another one of those memories lost in time

Jessica Harbut
11/12/03
11/13/03



 
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