I lie awake at night And converse with the darkness.We discuss many
things,The blackness and I.We had an interesting conversationThe other
night.I have been wondering latelyWhat it would be likeTo be someone other
than me.If I were more like her,Would you still Hate me?If I weren't
like me,Would you realize that you produced two?Could you know that we are
equal,Although not the same?Could you be that open-minded?Doubtful.Is it
possible for you to see meAs the woman I've become,Rather than the
girlYou once knew?I've overcome many obstacles,Climbed many
mountains,Achieved many dreams;But still you refuse to respect me.You tell
me that I'm worthless,That I won't amount to much.You call me a
loserI Cannot take it any longer!I will fight back this time.But am I Strong
enoughTo fight that which makes me weak?No.I will continue to let you
belittle meAnd treat me like a fool,Like I am merely a stepping stoneOn your
path of destruction.You tell me to respect youBut how can I respect a manWho
doesn't respect himself?I can't honor and obey youLike a true DAD
should be treated.Because in these past seventeen years,You have never been
a "Dad" to me.You are only my guardian, my provider -Not my
Dad.You've provided me with the basics,What I need now is for you to
help me;Love, Laugh, be Free,Live every moment to the Fullest.Until you can
fulfil that need,I will let the darknessHeal my wounded soul,Because you
never learned how.
 
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