Every time I look at my scarred wrist
I think about how you were the reason for it
How you were my everything
How my soul ended up dying
I try to go through my day normally
But a voice keeps bugging me
A strange, familiar voice in my head
Trying to save me, not wanting me dead
That voice stays on my mind-every second, everyday

Now I finally know who's voice it is
The voice is yours
You seem to be calling out my name
But I cant seem to get to you
I miss you and there’s nothing I can do
I wish you never left me all alone
Cause all I have now are memories
Thoughts of everything you said
And that voice - your voice - in my head

Every time I hear that voice I cry
I cry myself to sleep
The voice seems to be haunting me each night
Telling me everything will be alright
It's telling me how much you love me
That you and I were meant to be
But somehow it also says "I'm sorry"
"I just don’t want to hurt no more"
So I then go to the bathroom and lock the door
I reach for my trusty razor
The sharp razor - my only friend
I cut myself and realize how much I still love you
And I know you love me
You just don't want me

Again, I feel hopeless, surrounded by misery
Wishing for the day when I can be happy
For now all I can do is cry
Drown in my own tears and blood
Then I ask myself "why couldn't I have died instead?"
Cause death is nothing but numbing fears
Compared to the voice - your voice - in my head

 
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