So many mistakes in so little time
So many regrets in this little heart of mine
So many problems
So much pain
So much heartache
So much confusion in my brain
I’m not entirely clueless
I know the difference between wrong and right
But because of the curiosity, the peer pressure, the sense of belonging
I wasn’t able to put up a fight
I couldn’t resist
I couldn’t take it
I gave in
It sucked me in
Into the world of rebellion,
The seductive world of drugs

It was supposed to be a one-time thing
Trying weed out of curiosity
But there became a second time and then comes drinking,
cigarettes, meth - they all took over me
It came to the point where I can no longer concentrate in school
I didn’t bother caring for anything
I replaced my old friends
It made them hurt
They said I was starting to scare them
It made them worry
They said I’ve changed in a bad way
That I was no longer the smart, innocent girl I used to be
Right then I’ve realized I’ve fallen
I became lost
I didn’t even know who I was anymore
I just wanted things the way they were before

Those mistakes were my reality check,
My wake up call
Those mistakes were not my addiction,
my life, my oxygen, my all
It was merely a cry for help
A cry by a lost little girl
Only wanting to be happy
To be free
To be saved
Will anyone find me?

 
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