I would like to say I hate him
that I never want to see his face again
I would like to say I regret my time with him
because I haven't had my smile since then

I walk around school with a smile on my face
I go on pretending that everything is OK
I say that I am fine and it's not bothering me
But the truth is that they don't see
the tears I cry each night
the pain giving me such fright
They just don't see
how losing him is killing me

I would like to say he never meant a thing
that he was just a waste of time
I would like to say I never cared for him
that I never wanted him to be mine
But the truth is that I did
I cared for him; he was my everything
I don't regret the moments we shared
Though he broke me, and my soul is now dying
He was the first guy I felt truly cared

But he hurt me
And I don't understand why
He promised he'd always be there
Now I know the truth
Promises are all lies
Love is just not for me
I have come to accept it
All I wanted was to be happy
But now I know that love never makes it easy

He had made me cry my heart out
I had never felt truly hurt before
But seeing him so happy with her
Hurt me a million times more

What hurts the most is that everything he has ever said to me
He's probably saying to her right now
I would like to say I've moved on
But I haven't; I don't know how
Because the truth is, I loved him so
I loved him more than he or anyone could ever know

 
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