Controlled and cold
some days I feel so old
I grew up way too fast
and it's hard to hold the past
life is getting complicated
and I feel so isolated
with kids and responsibility I am bound
soon i'll be so lost I'll never be found
the colors in my life have faded
my world is black and white and i hate it
in a pool of water and I'm being held down
and it won't be long before I drown
I am so alone
and my house is not a home
all i needed was someone to talk to
but I couldn't, not with you
put all my feelings on the shelf
cuz your always too busy with yourself
I want to fly away
and someday I'll find a way
Until that day I'm slowly dying
and my heart always crying
trust my words, believe
that one day I will leave
then you'll see you need me
but you have to let me be
I've had long cold nites w/o you by my side
cuz you weren't there all the nites I cried
I don't want to make you sad
but I have to leave, Im sorry dad
 
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