how can anything be right,
when everything's so wrong?
when with the friends that i once loved
i feel i don't belong
i lash out with hate and bitterness
and still i don't know why
i chase them away, and can't help but wonder
why i make them cry
blinded by my own problems
i fail to see that they have their own
hopelessness and abandonement
worthlessness and alone
stupid me, can't see past myself
absorbed in the little world i'm in
sick of fighting for this cause,
a battle i cannot win
they hate me entirely
but i hate myself more
can't stand to bear the sight of me...
numbing myself to the core
all i want to do,
is find a corner where i can cry
curl myself up forever,
and lie there until die
cold-hearted, mean and rude
i hate myself in every way
why didn't i realize it,
why couldn't i see it until today?
running around, chased by insanity
trapped within this hole
as all my friends point and laugh
at this pathetic freak show
 
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