I found myself today
Today of all days, today
I found myself lost
In a familiar enviroment
The place of myself in my mind
It was louder than the normal silence
Louder than everyone, everywhere else
Yet they see me lost in silence
Silently somewhere else
Wondering and pondering about the little things
That mean more than death or life
Of any large subject that surpasses itself;
Picking out the little things
From the miniture thought in the vastness
Of a large crowd;
Worrying about the careless ideas
Of the future and its effects on the past
Like a front coming from the north
And the preparations for the storm that no one makes
How seeing myself as a ghost
That not yet of the dead;
The warnings we see but not receive
The memories of the memorable future
The ideas of the forgotten past
The premonition of tomorrow
And the events of the present;
All these small thoughts in such
A large capacity
But as one they make a thought
Too large to conceive as itself
The confusion of movements thought of
Moment by moment
Only sensible when stopped for
A moment of movement
They tumble in and out of
The conscience thought
I have lost the self I had found
In the crowd of myself
 
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