If only I'd paid closer attention
All those years ago
Maybe I would have seen the intense love in your eyes
Instead I looked the other way
If only I'd been less selfish and immature
I would have noticed then
That you were always there for me
Instead I tried to drive you away
If only I'd taken the time
To look beneath the surface
I would've seen a heart of gold
Instead of the outer shell of empty dreams
If only I'd stopped trying to live a fairytale
I would have found a life of true happiness
With less tears and disappointment
Instead an abundant supply of love
If only I'd realized when I almost lost you forever
That God Himself was trying to tell me something
Then I would've taken the message to heart
Instead I ran in fear and guilt
If only I'd stopped feeling sorry for myself
We both could have saved years of pain
I could have pulled you into my arms
Instead I pushed you away
If only I'd heard God's voice
In the miraculous birth of our child
I could have stopped the suffering then
Instead I tried to deny you her as well
If only I'd seen the truth years ago
I wouldn't have to ask for forgiveness now
My heart fears that you've given up
Instead your arms are still wide open
If only your hurt could fade
As easily as it surfaced
And my fear could simply disappear
Instead trust must have a chance to grow
If only I'd made the promise to love you
When we were still innocent teenagers
I wouldn't have to make this promise now
Instead I'd be keeping it
 
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