I can still feel your kiss on my neck
the way the further I pushed away you pushed back
I should have said NO louder
I should have forced you out of my bed
I shouldn't have let you in my head
A form of rape...
you took more than my innocence you took my soul
you left the shell of me...unwhole..
when you pushed me down
when you took off my clothes...
then unwrapping of the latex
just the thought of sex
it kills me now
i can't look at myself
you pushed deeper and I screamed
not enjoyment
not in pain, for help...
i could have changed it
i should have stopped it
it was like a drug,you inside of me
trying to hide the real me
i hate you, i hate me
i hate what you've done
i wasn't ready
my childhood is now gone
you torn it away from me
like you torn the inside of me
my emotions more then physically
i am bound and determined to change what you have done to me
i want to go back to what i used to be
but i can't, you didn't deserve me
and i didn't deserve what you did to me
i hate...my own reflection
because it's what you have forced me to be

 
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