So alone as I sit here.
I watch my life pass before me
With out a damn thing to do.
No one cares and no one listens.
They look at me and see a happy young girl.
The one who’s always smiling and
Can make anyone laugh at any given moment.
But they don’t see or understand all
The pain I go through just being me.
My parents are crazy and my siblings
Fight like there is no tomorrow.
Yet they remain completely clueless
When it comes to the anguish I’m
Faced with each and everyday.
My closest friends are the only people
Who have come anywhere near knowing
How I really feel about life.
But there are hidden feelings I’ll never show.
Just like when I’m mad I bottle it up deep
Down inside and it tortures my soul.
But people can not see that inside of me.
I hide it behind a smiling face.
I act like the world is just the best.
Ha, but really my life is just a huge mess.
Who actually cares about me though?
Why make myself happy when others deserve it more.
So on with my life and I continue to suffer.
No one will ever see this pain building up inside of me,
I’ll conceal it deep, deep down.
So to the world, I am just another exultant face.

 
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