I'll sit on this ledge
and view the beauty of outside
all the freedoms i'm denied
in this room i can escape
from all the pain i'm forced to take
i'll close my eyes, and drown out the sound
the yelling and screaming makes my head pound
i know they'll take it out on me
force me to be what they want me to be
i just want to be myself
taking in all the wealth
of the human spirit
i'm beginning to break
i've taken all i can take
stop forcing the change
it's bringing on the pain
i'm too scared to grab the knife and slice a vein
in the puddling blood i'd say my goodbyes
to all the fake secrets and the deciteful lies
one i wondered
does my daddy love me?
i never knew what the truth would be
the men in my life always break my heart
beat me down until i am torn apart
when i walk through the hallways
does anyone know i exist?
would anyone notice if i slit my wrist?
everynight i force my head deeper in the pillow
holding back the painful tears
shedding them is my biggest fear
to most of the world i am no longer here
pretend for once i was standing there
would anyone confront me to my face?
make me feel for once i wasn't out-of-place
i'll sit on the ledge
and force myself not to jump
view the beauty of outside
all the freedoms i'm denied
 
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