I had that dream again
the one that makes me cry
I had the dream again
Im so scared now, why?
He hurt me, he hit me
I cried and he apologized
I knew better, I always did
but somehow I didnt care
I knew he was good
I knew he didnt mean it
but he drank and he drank
and again he lost control
it hurt when he hit
but what hurt the most
was knowing that I let it happen
knowing that I didn’t care
and believing that he loved me
And whenI fell asleep last nite
I had that dream again
The one where he comes back
and the bruises all resurface
and the feelings flood back
i dont want him to hurt me again
he doesnt mean it
but he cant help it
please somebody save me
cuz i know i wont save myself
again and again he attacks me with words
before his fist hits my skin
he didnt mean it
so i just walk away
pretend that everythings okay
he follows, he chases
I scream I run
Im running forever
so it seems
and hes getting closer and closer
roses in one hand
and a clenched fist in the other
showing his two personalities
as they finally come together.
im running still running
even though im now awake
im stronger now
than i was back then
but he still haunts me
the mixed emotions still confuse me...
I had that dream again last nite
the one that makes me cry
I had the dream again last nite
Im so scared, but why?
 
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