I turn on the cold shower, and lay on the floor.
The freezing drops of water make me feel my insides,
all tore.
I close my eyes, and think of all the pain I endure through the day.
My stomache still empty, but i cannot say.
My head full of feelings and thought I sustain...
They cause me so much pain.
I open my eyes, and turn off my shower,
I reach for a towel to wipe my tears.
I live my life everyday in fear.
I question myself, my ability to think,
I try to make some kind of a link...
to the pain i receive and the hurt that i cause....
It really doesn't make any sense at all.
So now I lay my head to sleep,
as the feelings I have make me weep.
The anger I endure always comes back.
and yet I will starve myself till my fucken world goes right.
Till my feelings don't haunt me anymore at night.
Till the feeling of insecurity disappears,
And till i find myself, above all my fears


 
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