Your my biggest fear and I really don't like u!
I think your TRYING to run my life
Here’s the thing your not gonna run it and that’s final
I let you get the best of me from the very beginning but I’m not even close
to the ending
I thought I could live with you coming at me constantly never resting not
wanting to give up
Give up is what I should of did a long time ago
But I keep my head up and never bit my tongue
Even though I shed so many tears and held on to so many fears I had you
stuck in the back of my mind
While sitting in my room or sitting at my desk in school you had me
wondering when the next time you would come out and try to get me
Your not my childhood fear like the "Boogie Man" your more than
that and the fear is greater
I want you to just leave me alone stay away from me...get out of my life for
your just weighing down on my shoulders
I can't get the grades that I KNOW I’m able to get because of you!
I can't hang out with my friends because I wouldn't be able to
have a good time for you’ll be on my conscious
I let you hurt me so many times...and so many times you hurt me just for fun

I pray every night to the lord above and ask him "Why" and what
have I done to deserve hurt and pain this bad but I just end up getting hurt
again
What is it? Do you want me to STOP all the hurt on my own? It’s not that
hard to end something that never really got started
That’s exactly how I feel about my life...It never started for you never let
it start!
Are you afraid that I will do wrong?
I thought that was apart of being human...growing and learning from the
mistakes made along the way!
You know nothing about me but yet you are always around me, more than
friends and even "Mi Amor"
I spend more of the time that I REALLY want to spend with him with you and
that's the last thing I want in this world!

Now I see...you realize that I’m becoming the person who you NEVER were and
the person you will NEVER be!
I wont and can't say "I hate you" because "Hate" is
a powerful word that really hurts!
Even though revenge seems so good deep down inside...I really hate to see
you cry and that hurts me the worst!

But I will say this...One day I WILL Get Over The Hurt!!
 
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