every morning when i get up
i have to remind myself to breathe
just prove i can live without you;
even i am easy to deceive
you always were the only one
who could make me laugh until i thought i'd die;
it's funny, i never really imagined
what it would be like if you made me cry
and even now, i'm trying to forget
every memory that we had together
but no matter how well i convince myself
it never will get any better
and while i try to forget everything about you,
all the stuff that's tearing my world apart
i'll never be able to rid myself
of your number etched within my heart
i hate the way she makes you smile-
that's the way we used to be;
i hate the way she makes you laugh-
because those moments belong to me
and without even realizing it,
you ripped my heart completely out
you shred it into thin red ribbons
and then threw it on the ground
and as you turned and walked away
i was left just standing blankly in the dark
and slowly i looked down
and picked up the strips of my broken heart
i stood back up; unable to function
as i watched you walk away
i wanted to scream at the top of my lungs
but could think of nothing to say
i wanted to weep ten thousand tears
but yet i couldn't cry
it was killing me emotionally; i was shutting down
and yet i wouldn't die
although i've never believed in superstition
i've had fifteen years bad luck
ever waiting for your pleasant smile,
your delicate kiss, and loving touch
i'm still wishing i was in your arms
it's a game i hope will never end
but as reality hits me harder
i realize it's nonsense to pretend
and i just sat there next to you
as another tear rolled down my cheek
you asked what was wrong and i refused to tell you
the reason why i've become so weak
you sighed and shook your head in disappointment
you hated the fact that you couldn't see
but how could i have told you the problem,
that you were the one hurting me?
it hurts so bad to see you everyday
walking right on by
never stop to say "hello,
how are you? goodbye!"
despite how much it hurts to see you
i think i'd die if you weren't there at all
inside i still pray as i wait by the phone
hoping that maybe you'll call
despite how vulnerable this makes me feel
despite how much i feel alone
i refuse to let go of you
because you're still my safety zone
 
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