I can’t even put in into words
Feelings so overwhelming
Depression, anger, rage, and self-hatred
It’s still not real
How could it be?
But I can’t deny it, that would be too naive
It happened and it will never go away
And it will always hurt
And leave a scar
Much worse than the bruises on my body now
And carve just another hole into my heart
And let me never trust again
Show me that the world really is scum
And leave me feeling dirty
I cry and throw my fits of rage
I ignore and focus on it constantly
It won’t leave my mind
It won’t leave me alone
Pulling at my emotions relentlessly
Putting the clouds of hell in my forefront
Happiness in my wake
And it fills my dreams
Poisons my only air of escape
But still looms as a ghost unreal
Something I just can’t grasp
But a violation of my entire being
Knocking me to the point of nothingness
With no one to turn to
And no way to make it better
And I cry
Alone
Remembering the unreal, the horror, and the moment my life changed
 
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