Your reality is a waterfall of blood
Crying out to me while drowning in the flood
With detrimental gratification and harmony
While I’m wondering if she speaks eloquently.
I’m holding onto hopes and dreams, but nothing is found
Lost in my head while my screams pound.
I don’t appreciate you picking me apart
I feel so hollow inside my bleeding heart
Have you forgotten all I know and all we had?
Was it the nightmares that drove us mad?
All I want to do is get rid of this hell
I thought I took a step forward, but really I fell.
I fell into a screaming river of deceit
Where I lie awake and repeatedly get beat.
A few more bruises, or so it seems
Soon I know I’ll wake from this dream.
I built my own world to escape and slammed the door
What’s the point of trying to dream anymore?
I lie awake and try so hard not to think of you
But thoughts of anyone else are far apart and few.
It was a slap in the face,
How quickly I was replaced.
Can you hear me screaming? Can you hear a sound?
I won’t let you pull me down.
I said, “I’m sorry.” And confessed my sin,
I’m in the dark as to why I didn’t win.
You lead me on and had me believe
That I was special, stunning and not being deceived.
As decadent as you are,
I haven’t gone very far.
Despite the grief, torture and lunacy,
I still think that you’re flawless and that you deserve me.
Petrified to admit that there was no lasting connection,
My teardrops shook me from the wrong direction.
So now I lie awake wondering if you’ll come back.
Suddenly I stop breathing, thinking who you might have in the sack.
I continue to hold on, haunted by your face.
I look in the mirror and feel like a disgrace.
I will steal forty winks by the last breath I take,
I fear if I see you again, your face I will break.

~Sherry Lynn ~ January 13, 2004
 
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