My body caged, I am confined,
Put-down parade in my mind.

I need you now, more than ever,
I crave your pain, it brings me pleasure.
I beg you to leave, but you won’t budge,
I hide in shadows, while others judge.

Making me miserable, brings you joy,
Use me as a puppet, new favourite toy.

I breathe you, I taste you,
I don’t want to waste you.
I hate you so much,
Your razor-sharp touch.

Sweet blasphemy, now on my knees,
Can’t take this torture, I’m begging you please.

I can’t stand life with you, nor without,
I can’t separate the fear from the doubt.
You are the one, who is making me ill,
It is me, the one that you kill.

Your broken glass nails, cut into me,
Leaving deep scars, ones others can’t see.

I need my life back, I miss the old me,
I need my eyes opened, so that I can see.
I need to see light, through all this depression,
I need to find space, within this compression.

Painted on smile, hollow empty eyes.
Mouth full of secrets, head full of lies.

I’m comfortably numb, Can’t feel my hope,
I’m lacking the energy, I need it to cope.
I’m behind black windows, sufficiently blind.
My heart and your thorns, intricately entwined.
 
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