Shattered wings of broken things
Fear engulfed was I
Caged inside, protection of spikes
My lips cracked with the lies

Retreating inside myself I lay
Crying with no tears
Scared of feelings, emotions, happiness
Even more scared of my fear

I was not right, I was not there
My sense of self was gone
Weeping into my own hollow arms
Never been more wrong

I blocked you out and kept you away
Cringing at your touch
My skin would crawl, quiet tears would fall
I was never sane enough

You found your way, saw who I was
My hard veil, broken
“I love you now, forever and always”
Soft words were spoken

Vulnerable and frightened, hating this glee
I pushed you away
Scared, exposed, weak and cruel
I hardened, cold eyes gray

Rebuilding my shelter of hate and anger
This joy I could not withstand
Needing someone, I would not admit
Even though you held out your hand

And then you made me face the truth
This pain, I brought myself
Lying within this heartless body
Not to trust anyone else

Hardened covering of a frail and scared girl
This life of hate continued to be led
Invisible outreaches, to be taken back
Upon my rage I fed

I’m sorry that I hurt you
Even more sorry as you read
I’m sorry that I was so cruel
Selfish, heartless deeds

I’m sorry of what I put you through
My screaming acts of hate
I’m sorry that you say you still love me
And that my response is faint

I’m sorry that I don’t deserve you
You should have something more
I’m sorry as I walk away
My tears will drown the floor

I’m sorry that you were right
I’m just an empty shell
I’m sorry that I wouldn’t listen
To what you had to tell

I’m sorry you had to waste your time
Wasting it on me
I’m sorry that I wouldn’t see
The terrible person that I would be

Thank you for all you’ve done
In making my life better
Thank you for everything
My thanks will last forever

I Love You

 
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