i lie in retrospect
thinking of the past
thinking of my firsts
hopefully not my lasts

my first kiss
not quite as special as id hoped
the first time i heard my parents fight
i cried and tried to cope

when my brother went into a coma
and i feared for his life
when i got a new aunt
my uncle a new wife

when my first pet died
and we buried him in the yard
all the times weve moved
and how it was so hard

the first time i ever
got on stage
the first time i
was ever really afraid

my first love
not that long ago
the first time i was ever truly sad
my feelings i didnt show

the good.. the bad
theyre always there
when i tried not to
but i still cared

never will i forget
these things i keep inside
and all of the feelings
ive tried so hard to hide

i remember my brothers birth
and when i went to kindergarten
i remember my first school play
and my wrongs that werent pardoned

they'll live within me forever
the good and the bad
they're my life, my memories
the happy and the sad
 
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