I decided I would die today,
So I slashed on each damned wrist,
Then I lay down in bed,
My hands clenched in a fist.
It seemed the right thing to do,
So I closed each damned eye,
Blood trickled down from my wrist,
And I only prayed I would die.
But I woke up in a hospital bed,
Seeing everyone around,
I asked the nurse if I was dead,
Stood up and hit the ground.
And that’s where I stayed,
At the bottom of the floor,
And never have I gotten up,
Like I would have before.
I tried again when I went home,
I attempted suicide,
This time I succeeded,
I looked down and saw my mother cry,
Over my dead body.
I wish I had just one more day,
I wish I said goodbye,
But with my decision I must stay,
Lifting up to heaven,
Way far up above,
I turned around,
A tear came down,
I said goodbye to those I truly love.

 
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