As I sit here with these papers in front of me
telling me I'm sick
that I'm not ok
I can't help but think
why does it have to be this way
it may sound selfish
inconsederate and cruel
but why me? Why not someone whos a fool
This illness they call it
is eating me whole
not mentally but physically
I can't reach my goal
I wanna give into it
I wanna give up
but I must stay strong
I must stay tough
will I be better
no one really knows
they keep telling me I will
but it never goes
it just dwells inside of me
waiting to eat me whole
each day I am weaker
and thats how it goes
I will never give in
I will not let it win
I don't wanna see my family sad
don't wanna cause them pain
I just wanna feel gain
So I sit here and curse
this illness of mine
which now I know will never be fine
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