Thinking back to what I could have done
What I could have said
Wondering why I said the thing I did
I know they caused you pain
I know my words are in your head
Playing over and over like a broken record
Im sorry you had to endure my emotions and thoughts
Sorry I told you those things
You didn’t want to know

Thinking of all the stupid things ive said
I can’t get them out of my mind
They stab at my conscious
Causing me pain that no one can touch
I know you are hurting
And that breaks me up inside
Causing cracks in our solid foundation
Im sorry I couldn’t keep to myself
I need you to hold me up
Maybe that’s why I said them

Thinking back to how you changed
To how your voice became lower and cautious
Realizing you reacted differently than I wanted
How could I let you go on misconceived?
I know I could’ve taken my words back
That stained your heart, pure and strong
I just couldn’t make you uplifted
Everything I said just brought you farther and farther
Into the cavern of loneliness and insecurity
I’m sorry I don’t know what was crossing my mind

Thinking back to all the stupid things ive said
I can’t help but despise myself



 
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