"How Long"

how long do I have to bleed
how long until you see
I would have given you everything
how long must I continue to cry
how long until you care
I would have been your only one
how long until I stop wishing you were there
when can this pain finally end
why is it agony you continue to send
with each slice of the razor
with each drop of blood
I give my pain away
I send it to another place
every time I cry
I take one pill and then wonder why
my addiction to pain, its so surreal
I manage to maim my body
and I don't even feel
each scar on my body is for every time
every time I've felt alone
every time I had no where to go
each drop of blood
is for all my stupidity
is for every mistake I've made
all the pills I’ve downed
were to take away the pain that found
me in my room
alone with despair and gloom
memories are the scars on my wrist
my shiny friends with sharp precision
remind me of every fucked up decision
maybe tonight I'll drown the noise out
I'll forget what the fight was all about
how long will it be
before you forget me
how long will it be before I die
it's so hard because I don't want to let go
but there’s no point in living
if there’s so much pain
I'm leaving now
never to return again

 
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