i'm sorry that i left you as close to speechless
as you've ever been
i can't erase the guilt of hurting you
but on that note
i can't erase the hurt that you gave me
guiltlessly.

maybe if i had warned you
to not arouse in me the beast that to this day
remains untamed
to not cross the line, so definitely traced on the earth beneath your feet
you wouldn't be a sobbing body hugging yourself
in the comfort of the corner of your bedroom closet
with the hole i burned in your chest
and blood crying from your flesh
i'm sorry i ruined your shirt
i'll work overtime today
and buy you a new one.

now that i look back on it
in the moonlight, i think i mistook your heart
for your throat
and tore the wrong thing
i'm sorry.
i was mistaken.
i would give you my own heart, but you took it
i can only hope that you forgive me and give it back.
because to deny a broken soul their only piece of life
is to deny a dying slave commendment of their strife

so invoke the right in me
to take my cold and dry heart back
provoke the angel in me
to dive down from the clouds
and tend to your purple face
and shred a peice of my coat to wrap around your bleeding wrist
and take back the memory, so you won't have to remember the day i helped
slit
our relationship.

it was already far enough down the black hole
that a miracle wouldn't be enough to revive it
but i know that my actions did not help.

i'm sorry i ruined your shirt
i'll work overtime today
and buy you a new one.

i'm sorry.
 
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