“Skin”
Running my hands along my warm skin
thinking about everything that might have been
but cannot be because of the choices she decided upon
and because of all the things she threw away
flicker my fingers through my un-washed hair
putting the pieces of my mind together in a cardboard box
one that has got a big heavy chain and a golden key that locks
locks all my hollow smiles and empty cries deep inside
keep all of my deepest secrets ever so silent
don’t even let the lovers or the life-long comrades in
questions about my arms come up and I fumble for an alibi
just a scuffle or just fucking around with some people I know
touch her hand and reassure her that everything is groovy
and please baby please I do not want you to worry
the words leap from my lips but they mean nothing
I do not love her and I do not want her around anymore
the constant toying with my heart and mind is over with now
push her up and out of my dreams at night so I can sleep
sleep sound and warm and dream about someone else
who can take this cardboard box in my closet and burn it
take the ashes and toss them into the cold dark waters of the sea
let that big fucking chain sink with that damn lock
penned all my thoughts up inside away from the light
made me so crazy it came to it that I couldn’t sleep at night
but now I have parted ways with those long cold days
and the sun breaks through my window at noon
pierces my sleep and warms my eyes with its great heat
I look to my desk and see her phone number written in sharpie
and the smallest most pleasant smile forms to grace my face
another day that I can go outside shirtless and smoke and listen
listen to the birds as they fly and write about the passing clouds
this is the fifth day that I have spent with my feet tied tightly down
while my mind drifts along so very docile in the clouds above
running my hands along my warm skin
I can see that love that I used to know
and I want to feel her in my arms wrapped up tight safe from harm
run my hands along her warm and smooth skin
love is the ballroom
and she is the usher leading me in…….
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