To explain my every emotion
Would be like explaining Life itself
For Life cannot be explained
But only lived and felt
For every expectation my family has
Another word to me is lost
If everything happened literally
My tongue would be bitten off
Life cannot breathe, it just repeats itself in vain
Life cannot apologize
For my every tormenting pain
I cannot seem wise enough to make my mother proud
And in my step-father's eyes
I will always be the disobedient step-child
With no mind of her own
I will never be brave enough to tell him to leave me alone
And I will never have the heart to actually leave home
And I will never love myself enough to have hope
Never will I ever have the courage to hang myself with a rope
I pray to God constantly but he never answers the questions I've asked
I think this is punishment for all the things I've done in the past
God is torturing me by giving me this life
I've asked him to take it back
Over a thousand times
By writing this down for thouusands to view
Is beyond stepping over the line
Because no matter what i write readers still won't know me
Or that there's tears in my eyes
All they'll do is read on or turn it off and sympathize
My confessions on paper never mattered
For you cannot hear my tone
And all the pain I've endured and hid
Cannot and will never have the ability to be expressed in a poem
 
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