Air is thin
Day so dim
Thoughts enter
Surfacing are emotions
Thought were deeper within
Reflecting on days that have passed
Moments that did not last
Pictures restored
Clear in my mind
Of our shortened time
Some days I’m strong
Some days I’m weak
Days like today
I weep
People asking, “What does she seek?”
Judging the lifestyle
That has become me
Numbed emotions pour into my soul
“How the f… could you let go?”
Bitter and angry
Bet you’re a... I am
Does no one understand!
You f….. Up…
When times were tough
You gave up!
Enough was enough
How was I to know…
How was I to fight?
Try to help you heal,
Make things right
Contemplating thoughts of what
I could’ve done
How could you do this to our son?
If vows before god were not enough,
How bout that kid you loved so much?
Damn, I hate having days like these
When I question the life I lead
Have to look into the eyes of
Our seed
Hear him say
“Mommy, I miss daddy.”
Find it hard to breath
Cannot conceive
How such a thing has happened to me!

 
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