Lost in the motions
Living in contradiction
Feeling so convicted

My flesh feels abused
Abandoned by commonsense
Battered emotions
That made me weak

I don’t recognize me
Filthy I feel
Lay here still
Can’t believe this is real
Driven by anger
Motivated by jealousy
I hate what this has done to me

The strength I held
Once made me wise
Has left my side
Why am I so empty?
How did I end up here?
Feeling so cold in search of ways
To let emotions go
No longer in control…

Each night I loose myself a little more
Realize parts of me cannot be restored
Not the girl you knew
Naively believing that in this world
Things could be good
I failed you
I failed me
So afraid that thru my eyes you’ll see
I am not the image your mind has created of me


 
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