sitting underthis tree
crying and weaping
and wondering what will become of me

i hear them everyday
the fighting the screaming
i wish it would fucking go away
i wonder what is life's real meaning

i hear then cuss
i see them fuss
this is no home
this is no fucking family

i try my best
but it doesnt get me far
i pray for it to stop
but it never does
i hate that they do it
it makes me mad

they dont care to understand how i feel
to know that i have to hear this shit and realize that its real

i have to make that decision everyday
to stay around
or go away
i hate that i think about suicide everyday
its not suppose to be that way
but yet i think it would be better if it happened that way
i wouldnt have to care
i wouldnt have to hear it anymore
i would never have to be there
ever again
i would be free

i wouldnt have to hear there lies
or get another disappointment
i wouldnt have to cry

they dont understand me nor choice to accept who i came to be
and they dont care to know
all they do is lie u see
thierlove ...it never shows

so why am i still here
as i am unwanted
they dont understand me and never will

i live in a family of hate and lies
only this time
i pray to die
i wish i wasnt me
 
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