Watching your own hate
Fade away into the innocent night
I try to hold the memories
To force away any possible love

I cannot see myself
In love with the person who
Hurt every inch of my heart;
Yet you still remain in my mind.

You came from behind
Grabbed my bare shoulders
And kissed my naked spine.
What I did was wrong, but it felt so right.

Being with you right now
Forces my skin to crawl
And remain unworthy
Of what I could've been.

That night, I threw away my life
Just to remain certain
That after all the abuse
I was simply drawn to you.

Your promises are an occurance
Of lies and painful deceit
In which I foolishly believe
Every single time.

You looked longily in my eyes
And swore there would be no more pain.
But something inside ignores your plea.
I know you are lying.

Somehow, I stayed with you.
Ignored my intuition
And followed my heart.
So now, I know who the liar truly is.

My heart is the liar in which I trust,
Who forces me to love
An unbearable matter
In which I cannot understand.

Why must I suffer from you?
Why must I remain alone?
Why must I confuse tragic losses?
Why must I follow my heart?
 
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