It happened August 3rd, 2003
I know he didn't love me
I have no clue what I really felt for him
Everyone called him a pimp
It was late at night but early in the morning
I snuck out to his grandmas house
Where he was staying until he felt the need to move out
I told my brother I would be with my best friend.
Yet I lied once again
When I got there he was waiting outside
I knew what he wanted by the look in his eyes
I thought we were only going to mess around
Or even better just make out
But he had the protection in his hand
What a typical man He ask where I wanted to do it at
The living room, outside, or in his grandma's van.
I said the van but it was way to small
So we did it on the garage floor naked and all
He wanted to just do it but i ask him to work up to it So... We made out
first
He then began to strip me of my clothes
I laid on the blanket beginning to get cold
I was scared to death
How did I get in this mess?
I wanted to cry but left it inside.
He stuck it in, it hurt at first
I groaned in pain, he ask if I were okay
Wasn't I suppose to feel bliss?
I now lost something I still miss
How could I be so stupid?
There was no pleasure just constant pain.
To this day everytime I do it, it feels the same
This time last year I was sane, and barely anyone knew my name
My innocence was stolen and now here I am lonely and still searching for a
man.
 
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