I built my life on brick and stone
And kept the darkness in.
I hid in shadows amongst the walls
And secured my feelings from within.

I detached myself from the rest of the world
And now those feelings grow numb.
The loneliness sinks itself inside
And is no longer a comfort I wait for to come.

My house is built upon loneliness,
devastation and despair.
My life is nothing but a waste,
And I wonder if I will ever begin to care.

I’ve work so hard to get by in life,
And taken the pointless turns.
Sometimes it feels so stupid,
And others I worry if I will get scars and burns.

There’s nothing that makes me happy anymore,
Everything and everyone around me feels like
a whiz,
a blur,
a bore.

Nothing seems to fit in place,
And I feel myself start to fall.
Just when I thought my friends would be there to catch me,
They’re off somewhere else and can’t hear my call.

I hit the earth with a shattering crack,
And feel myself drift away.
It is only then that I realize….
I’m dying,
And I’ll never live to see another day.

Tears of sadness glisten my eyes,
And I pray to erase what I’ve done.
“I know I’ve made a mistake!” I cry out.
But I also know the end has just begun.

I close my eyes and wait to die,
And the darkness creeps itself in.
I somehow wish I could go back in time,
And erase this man made mortal sin.

I feel myself begin,
to take my one last breath.
The darkness closes itself around me,
and I realize all that’s left is death.

I wish I could see my loved ones,
Even for just one last time.
My life begins to flash before my eyes,
And it all comes down to the end of this rhyme.

The images begin to fade,
And the darkness settles in.
I wonder where I’m going now,
Heaven, Hell, or will I remain a ghost within.

I feel my heart has stopped it’s beat,
And that it is time for me to go.
I want to say, “I’m sorry!”
And to apologize to everyone that I know.

I’ve caused so much pain and destruction in their lives,
This is just one more thing,
And adds to the already hundred stabbing knives.

I lie alone on the ground,
And my soul drifts away.
By this time I’ve realized I’m already dead….
And I can never come back someday.

 
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