I died a thousand deaths tonight
I cried oceans full of salty tears
My worst fears became a harsh reality..

The anger has been agrrivated
the depression is kicking in
why is this the same pattern
over and over again
why cant my broken heart
give in and mend?

I know it would be easier
if my feelings still didnt burn
and or it wasnt your body
that i still yurn
I know it would be easier if i didnt fall so fast for your words so
soothing
or the tiny i love you's that became so farmilliar and moving

making plans for our future
bringing a smile to my face
i wanna lay in the grass
i wanna remember this place
when we were in love..
when you loved me too
when i didnt spill tears over this love i thought was true

Im gonna sit on our chair
and wish on the stars
that you were next to me ..sitting there
im gonna watch all of our movies
then cry myself to sleep
but i wont tell you..
i wont make a sound
not one peep

People will talk
but they'll never know
why you really left..
why your soo gone..
why the pain dosent show

Im gonna go off
when i hear your name
Im gonna open the bottle
and drink away this pain

Im gonna go crazy
thinking of your smile...
maybe the cuts and scars
will help me
get my mind of you for a while

maybe if i was better
or a little more pretty
a litte more smart
maybe we needed some time apart

i didnt see this coming
a wake up call
why couldnt you warn me
about my one and only fall?

why couldnt you make it easier
why couldnt you be there when i crashed..?
or help me cry out the pain?
why are you so beautiful but yet so vain..

Ill do anything to rid me of this pain..



 
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