she seems so sad, and im giving all that i can. and yeah, im really sorry
about the time i wasnt there. the time i never answered the phone. the time
when i didnt see you for days on end. i had to deal with me, myself. i had
to put myself first for once, for the first time in life, and find out who i
really am. i think it worked out better now, because im happier now, than i
was before my depression, and im a better person because i found out all my
flaws. im not a perfect person, so slap me across the face.

Im not so perfect. i couldnt be there in the month of July, because my eyes
were flooded and my hands were shaking. didnt want you to see me in such bad
shape.

so these are the reasons i missed that month. again, and again i repeat im
sorry. but i know that you deserved better, and theres no words that i can
write or say to fill that void. take the knife and cut a knot in the rope.
cut it perfect so when i kick this chair in, i wont have to think about any
of this anymore. i want this to be my one last minute i spend in this body.
but no matter the fate i will love you forever, your my favorite desire and
my favorite thing. so never leave my site. unless you put yourself first,
and deal with your own problems. i will understand because your not the only
one.
 
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